I'm going through a lot these past few days. Only God knows how I'm feeling right now. at this point of time. I really miss that feeling of being wanted. Okay maybe that's not the right word to describe this. It's more like I miss the feeling of being important to someone. I'm sure everyone want / need someone to talk to when they are having problems and such. Yeah I do have my best friends but I ain't close to them anymore. Syairah has always been there for me & I am thankful for that. 

I've quit hoping for miracles to happen & when I think about it, I thought to myself. Are you even worth my time? I'll always remember what Nysa told me. She said the problem I'm having now is that I'm comparing others to you which is totally unfair. There are others who are better than you & I believe in that. Come to think of it, it's true. I'm being selfish not only to others but myself. I have to stop this. Things have to change & it will.