i dreamt that i fought with my uncle. and i scolded vulgarities to him. it all happened when my family attended a wedding somewhere near their house. so we were like looking up at their house to see if there was anyone home. however, my uncle was not happy and he came down to argue with us. i was upset with his behaviour and shouted at him. my grandma was crying. and i started crying as well. there was no one around. it was only me and my grandma. after that, i woke up and i had tears in my eyes. i hope all these would not turn into reality. how i wish my family could get back together as one, again. having dinners together. break fast like we usually do during fasting month. and even go to the zoo or have an outing together. i really miss those times. i really do.

to my dearest cousins iskandar and hamka; i hope the both of you are doing fine. i really miss you guys :(